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Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Last Tues is my last paper...EconS...The irritating paper so tough! Think gotta fail the module. 80 MCQs in 2 hrs. After 1 hr i haven finish half yet. That's like omg! After one hour of battling i decide to jus make it a fast one. Jus choose bAse on instince. But still can't finish the paper eventually....In the end when the lecturer announced Times up. I quickly shade all the left over with "C"s. HaiZzz...

After last paper went to collect my student pass. Lost my student pass on sat...But so lucky its found...=)

After exam went to meet Nicholas to shop at City Hall.... Bought a Rubic Cube...Then went to Orchard to shop....Went to Paragon and spend 150+ on my cosmetic...

In the evening meet with Jere to have dinner. We went to have Thai food. Then followed by that he wanted to drink a mug so he asked Jayson out. He drove and we pick Jayson up at MRT station(forget which one..LolXxx..)

Omg! They drink beers!!! I hate it... They order 2 jugs... Then after that another 2....So a total of 4... I kanna Sabo by them to drink... Omg! It tasted so horrible....

Then after drinking a bit giddy...and a bit high...LolXxx.... Then he drove Jayson home first then sent me home... =P

Then wed went back to Starhub to work! So glad to be back to work...Home Feeling!!! Great! After work went back home to slp...Damn shag n tire...

Thurs went to meet

Friday went to meet diana, dylan and HT....We went to BMW series 1 car launch party...Then had our drinks and crap...Then go home...On my way home i think i accidentally lost my mobile and ipod nano...

I only realise the next day...So sad... I lost so many things...Somemore my mobile is attached to a new hp accessories which i just bought for 1day($20+).

The surprise thing is that the following day in the evening I informed Jere about my mobile lost and he called me and say that i'm so lucky. Someone picked up my stuff and want to return. At the very instance, i thought he was playing a prank on me but later from his tone i realise he's not. He gave me the person's no. and i contact the person. AND YES! I GOT BACK ALL MY STUFF!

Can you all believe i lost mobile and ipod nano and is able to get back. So surprise. but i really thank the person. =)

Sunday went roller blading with HZ, Nick & KP. HZ thought me the basic. moving, braking and changing direction. But then still dunno how to change direction....

End of the week...

crystal_heart @ 10:24 PM | comment link here

Sunday, April 20, 2008

People who are looking for me...I'm so sorry that I've set my mobile phone to silent. NO vibration No ringtone. Nothing. And I've put my phone in drawer. I really need some peace and some time to get over stuff.

I will get back to you all when i can. Sorry. I really need some time to be alone.

crystal_heart @ 11:30 PM | comment link here

How's many of your friends really stand by you when you really need them?

Only through your sadness you will really see who your true friends are. Those who really show their concern and stand by you to gif you all the encouragement.

Few of my friends really show a lot of care and concern for me and i'm really glad. Thanks.

Friends is not a matter of time. Sometimes is through the care and concern that you see.

Someone maybe not noe you long but they can do much more then wat your longest friend can do. Friendship is really a hard thing to maintain but it also requires two or more parties to play their part.

Sometime you do your best but some of your friends just didnt see the effort you put in. Can be discouraging at times. But that's life... Where you get to have diff type of friends. Where you need to learn how to handle.

crystal_heart @ 6:04 PM | comment link here

Saturday, April 19, 2008

I realise that during your drunk state you will do alot of thing out of no where. And what you did is it out of alcoholic reaction or not? and do we remember or pretend not to? Maybe pretend not to is easier.

crystal_heart @ 11:06 AM | comment link here

Having hangover now! suppose to start mugging at 9am and now its going to be 11 and I'm still stoning. =(

Yesterday went out with SE clicks. Thought they were meeting for dinner but ended up having no dinner and went drinking.

Know alot of new ppl at the drinking session. One of the girl break with her bf and got together with another guy in the next min... LolXxx...That's fast. Now aday ppl's feelings changes so fast. I feel abit sad for the bf cause the guy she's with now is his best friends. But then relationship its hard to determine who's right and who's wrong. It's the feelings that counts.

Quite happy yesterday because 2 of them help me get rid of the guy that keep pester me. =) Thanks dudes! But he still insist on a dinner....Dunno why keep insisting me to have a dinner with him?

Then Huiting join us in the drinking session too... Long time never see her since poly. she's still the same...=) hehe...So glad that she came.

Around 1 plus all of us went off. Now rather confuse of what I want. Sometime quite disappointed in myself. Don't seem to have any accomplishment and stuff.

Anyway my heart suddenly feels hurt after seeing what he did to me... Rather sad but for the time being I think i should try very hard to focus on my studies.

The only way to save yourself from being hurt is to dont meet the person. I'm trying very hard to do so cause we are impossible too and also I'm very confuse with what is the feeling I am having now.

Watever! Studies. Mind pls focus. Please!

crystal_heart @ 10:42 AM | comment link here

Friday, March 21, 2008

Here I am trying very hard to focus on my java programming assignment and my dad is providing me with never ending problems. Family keep quarreling....

What's happening to my family? This yr had been a bad year. I'm not sure how long can I still hold on to. Sch life already been very stressful and now I need to handle my family problem also. I still a student... I really cant handle so much....I've really tried my best. I dunno wat I've dont wrong. Nothing seems to be smooth in my life now......

Now i noe why once a people is unlucky really can be so unlucky....This is really true.....

crystal_heart @ 8:17 PM | comment link here

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Why must you tell lie to me? Why everyone have to lie? Just when i thought you might be different? I hate it........ It really hurts me so much.........

Just like what Hazel had said......The heart is dead now........I should wake up from my dream.......Although it's hard but I believe what you did will gradually wake me up........Thanks to you.........

Since I've entered Uni, my life seems to be up-side down.........Everything seems so wrong......Simply everything just went wrong.

Friendship? I don't have time to spend with my friends......Making us drift apart. Maybe drift until so far where I do not know how to salvage the friendship also.

School work? I've put in extra effort into my study but my results are still not good. Each time the result is below average.......All my friends did better then me.....feeling so helpless and incompetence at times........

trying very hard to carry on........but sometimes really feel very sad and discourage.....

anyway after venting out my anger feel so much better.........

crystal_heart @ 7:00 PM | comment link here

Sunday, March 02, 2008

Although I'm happy to find out the answer but I still feel very hurt......I feel hurt partly because of the news I got also but somehow I feel even more sad after hearing his story. Especially on what he told me......Anyway we will still be good friends... I will put everything behind me....But I think i need sometime to do that.

Even though I keep telling him that I'm fine but my heart can't help but feel so pain.....Afterall I'm not as strong as I think I am..... But I do not want anyone or him to know about how I'm feeling......I'm worried that he will feel burden and worse of all is the friendship will be gone....I really don't want that to happen.......I don't want my other friends to worry for me also..........

Feel so much better after pouring out everything......

How I hope the one week will not end so fast especially now when I don't have time to even tidy up all these mess.........

I hope next week will have time to meet up with HT.... Think she's the one who will be able to comfort me.......Hope to meet her soon.......

crystal_heart @ 12:44 PM | comment link here

Friday, February 29, 2008

I hate what I am now.

Hate School and everything that's going on in my life. I feel so much happier in the past then to now. Missed all my friends but after graduating everyone seems to be busy with their own life. It's so hard to actually gathered together.

The workload here is so heavy. I feel so inferior here. It's just like no matter how i do I won't be able to catch up with the rest. It seems like I shouldnt been in there in the 1st place.

Thinking of switching course to accountancy. But I simply can't make up my mind. If i were to switch now I will have to forgo everything I'm taking now. Another 4 yrs in sch? Nope I dont think i want that. I dont seem to know what I want......Sometime I really feel I'm so useless. HaiXxxx........

Mid term around the corner and I'm not able to focus on my studies. What should I do? If only we have a brain wash machine. I think I will be happier. I can simply delete off What I want. In that way I think I will simply be happier. But there are also trade-off for that. Maybe in life we have to deal with all these. Think now what I'm going through is the biggest challengue in life.

crystal_heart @ 4:23 PM | comment link here

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name: Irene
age: 19+
d.o.b: 21 Sep 1987
school: Ngee Ann Poly
previous Schools: Pearl's Hill Pri Sch, Qtss
course: IT
blood Type: O+
school: Ngee Ann Poly
height: 158cm
weight: 48.3kg
horoscope: Virgo
e-mail: devilflame87@gmail.com