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Saturday, March 19, 2005

Last night have been chatting with Pei zhi...Very long never chat with her already...haha..Than she very funny...She say we're good buddy although very long never chat but still so close...And she keep saying "Wo men ren shi le 8 nian de hao peng you" and "cong xiao ren shi ni nan dao bu dong ni ma?"...haha...

Pei Zhi's studying in nursing course...Than she told me she got a friend,Christina(not real name) study 3 weeks of nursing only and commit suicide...At first I thought she's kidding but she say it's real..

At first PZ know abt this thing is when the Christina's sister called her and told her that Christina had passed away...Than PZ tat time still slping..So she never really notice anything cause she didnt believed what her sisten said..She thought she's playing a prank on her...

Than after that she woke up and went to see her phone and realised not a dream because Christina's sis did really call her...Than she by that time than believed Christina died...Maybe things just happen to fast and unbelievable...

The day when Christina commit suicide..PZ and other friends still have meeting with her..Than PZ got see that she's very distracted..Than got asked is she ok?Than she say ok..Than PZ asked her where she's going than she said going to meet her senior..Than PZ say ok lo..Than Christina left to meet her senior..

PZ felt very guilty when Christina died...But she say Christina's senior will be more guilty because before Christina commit suicide she did asked her senior if one is to commit suicide which level is better to jumped down?Than think her senior dunno still tell her ba..

Alot of thing happen after she died...She did write a suicide note when she died..think she got her reason to do so...

*Maybe too stress?

*Maybe finanicial problem?

*Maybe personal problem?

*Maybe some unexplainable thing happen?

PZ also say that when that thing happen..She feel so down..And commiting suicide did came across her mind...But she never lah..Feel so relieved..Cannot imagined if she really did that I'll feel very guilt de...Because if I did spend more time and talk with her than things will not happen...

Same thing to Christina...If that day someone saw something wrong in her..and managed to talk with her and comfort her I think will turned out different ba...Maybe she wont be dead...

Maybe this is a lesson for everyone of us to learn...Dont take things for granted...Life is very fragile..You'll never know what will happen tomolo..And maybe tomolo the ones that you loved will not be around anymore..So treasure what you have now..

Actually I think commiting suicide did came across alot of people's mind especially when one's life had many unhappy events happening...In the past,commiting suicide did came across my mind also but than I lack the courage to do so....So that's why now I'm still here..haha...

Yesterday got discuss with PZ..Sometime did you all really think why we are born on this birth?And what we're here for?

Sometimes will feel that life is so meaningless...For the first 1/4 of your life you be
wake up,eat,go sch,come home,slp...Although got entertainment lah..But than the main purpose/routine will be the same almost every single day..Than for the 3/4 of your life will be wake up,eat, go work, come home, slp...Same routine again..Only change go sch to work only...

Yesterday we also got say spore maybe advanced and we may have everything we want..But are we really happy?

Maybe we have to give in something in exchange for what we have now...We exchange our hapiness with stress to get all those high-tech facilities...Singapore is a good place to live in..but only the stress that come along may not be what everyone can accept...Maybe that's what we have to give in inorder to live in such a well-equipped society...

But than no matter how meaningless life is or what difficulties you met..Life still have to go on...You cannot dissapoint the ones that are closed to you...

But I've learned that commiting suicide will not help to solve problem...

Suicide did will help to solve problem for the dead one but did they think of what will happen to their family and friends?

Think Christina may think she's a burden to the family or what...Because heard from PZ she said she's very filial...Or maybe she's stress up and had so many problem that she didnt know who to confide in..Than she thought suicide is the best choice for her...

PZ said that when she went for attachment there's his guy also commite suicide by jumping down from building but never die..So she told me everything is predestined...Sometime's your life is not up yet so when you commite suicide you will still survise...

So for those people who have the thinking to commite suicide...Please think before you act..Think of the consequences...What if you jumped off and never die but instead become handicapped?Your family will have to look after you for life...Even if you did die think of what will happen to your family n friends...Commiting suicide may not be the best decision...

In life there'll be many ups and downs...Just be optimistic...Things may turn out differently...Treasure your life..Some people who want to live on are not given such a change so when you are given this chance dont take it for granted....

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name: Irene
age: 19+
d.o.b: 21 Sep 1987
school: Ngee Ann Poly
previous Schools: Pearl's Hill Pri Sch, Qtss
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